? Saturday, October 17, 2009
mm, i like.
chapter it.4:37 PM
? Friday, October 02, 2009
my sister is so critical about life.
chapter it.7:09 PM
? Thursday, September 24, 2009
fall pretty birds;
from makeshift cardboard office buildings.
chapter it.4:42 PM
? Monday, September 21, 2009
do you remember the promises? how we'd jump off the wooden bridge without a care for the world, trusting our linked hands would keep us safe. sandbox castles built in the sky, it was so easy with you by my side. but now things have changed. you moved away. you ask how this place is treating me, i reply not so well.
chapter it.5:46 PM
? Monday, September 07, 2009
tick tock.
dont you just hate it when people dont respect boundaries?
when they just disregard every rule set in the history of best friends?
simple things: dont lie, dont cheat on friends, best friends ex boyfriends are off limits.
most importantly of all, dont cross bitches.
cos you know theyll bite back.
why do people just screw their lives?
is it because they come from broken families?
so much so that they have to lie about the death of their father?
ha, in your fairytale world, go ahead.
but dont mess up my life will you fucktard?
but hey, ultimately, its your life.
if you want to make out with guys who need braces (and have them),
guys who are total bastards, guys who cheat on their girlfriends,
by all means go ahead.
when you end up a single mom,
living on welfare checks, haha.
chapter it.9:46 AM
? Friday, September 04, 2009
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3IrHee0ih_4&feature=fvst
I watched my dad walk out the door,
Shattering my world behind,
I knew Id never see him again,
And it hurt so much inside,
Yelled at the sky,
Why is it this way?
look at myself I just cant get straight,
My life is so hazy,I even lost my baby,
My soul is yearning and I just need to change,
Too many chances and I blew it,
So hungry and I have no one,
And I just keep hanging on,
And I just keep hanging on,
And I just keep hanging on,
Never gonna give up,
I live my life,
Feel better each and every day,
Im not gonna quit so there
Sick of this Shit so there
Never gonna give up,
I live my life,
Feel better each and every day,
yea,
Everythings gonna be okay,
yea,
Everythings gonna be okay
In my tub I just want to end,
All I really feel is pain,
My life is crap I got nothing to lose,
And everything to gain,
So alone no one even sees me,
No job to free the debts I achieved,
Just feel like Im losing,
My heart just keeps on bruising,
My futures blurring and I gotta think quickly,
Why now he doesnt deserve this,
I am gonna go crazy soon,
And I just keep hanging on,
Please keep hanging on,
Please keep hanging on,
Never gonna give up,
I live my life,
Feel better each and every day,
Im not gonna quit so there
Sick of this Shit so there
Never gonna give up,
I live my life,
Feel better each and every day,
yea,
Everythings gonna be okay,
yea,
Everythings gonna be okay
Even if u wanna cry,
Gonna be better just take the ride,
Something tells me youll be fine,
The strength inside you is gonna shine
Never gonna give up,
I live my life,
Feel better each and every day,
Im not gonna quit so there
Sick of this Shit so there
Never gonna give up,
I live my life,
Feel better each and every day,
yea,
Everythings gonna be okay,
yea,
Everythings gonna be okay
Never gonna give up,
I live my life,
Feel better each and every day,
Im not gonna quit so there
Sick of this Shit so there
Never gonna give up,
I live my life,
Feel better each and every day,
yea,
Everythings gonna be okay,
yea,
Everythings gonna be okay.
this is by far the saddest song ever. but at the same time, it gives me hope. ive been thinking, people always assume alot of things about me: that girls crazy, she has add, shes some weirdo who wont shut up. then again, shes up for anything, her self esteem is so high, she'll excel in everything. i hate expectations of me, assumptions too, because they put alot of pressure on. over the years, i really think that people dont know me as well as they like to think. even best friends who think i reveal all, theres still alot of things i keep to myself. theres even more about myself i dont know about. but something i do know for a fact, life can be the bitch from hell, and sometimes, you just cant outbitch her.
chapter it.11:53 PM
? Sunday, August 16, 2009
do not trouble yourself with worry, sweet child.
for tomorrow's dawn will always come.
it will melt away the frost of yesteday's storm,
give hope to those who have lost their way in the night.
good morrow to you, good morrow once again.
the light has come, the dragons of fire slain.
knights have had their fill of their paramours,until the days desire have them knocking again at the door.
so hush my ward, my pretty little thing.
sleep, and awaken when the mockingbirds sing.
i am so sorry, im still caught up with tkam, hence the last line.
chapter it.6:04 PM
? Friday, August 07, 2009
so far, life has been good (: cant complain. common tests are next week, but im actually studying, apart fromt he fact i played sims 3 the whole day yest. oops. but nonetheless, im pretty satisfied with life. i sort of made a promise to myself i wont screw up anymore, so im kinda new to this whole studying thing. yeah i know, wth right? but still, im taking a trip down determination lane. and this time, no motherfuckers gonna get in my way(:
chapter it.2:18 PM
? Wednesday, July 22, 2009
ok, its chemistry now, and we are all in the com lab. its really fun, miss oh let us search the eclipse on the web. and of course, being me, me hands and fingers strayed to the letters: f-a-c-e-b-o-o-k and t-w-i-t-t-e-r and m-y-s-p-a-c-e and b-l-o-g-g-e-r. isnt chemistry fun? im copying off rachel's paper instead of doing my worksheet. haha rachel: chem nerd. she's giving the what the hell are you doing face, its rather funny and comical really (: how i wish i was in london or new zealand. no idea why, just wish. i suppose its cos of the weather. its so cold and nice, it reminds me of new zealand, and daniel is going on and on about how living in london is the bomb, so yeah. i do wish i lived in london with him, or in nz with vic (:
ive got not much to say. i read through my fuzzies again yesterday. they make me feel all smiles inside ((((((((:
total eclipse of the heart. now where did THAT come from???
chapter it.9:03 AM
? Sunday, July 05, 2009
ah, here we go again. im starting to get that feeling, you know the one where you just think all the guys you know are just repulsive? and its the one feelign that makes you go, oh fuck why cant i be in america or somewhere else where the guys are sooo much better? yeah. thats the one im feeling right now. but of course there are some guys who are fine (: not forgetting all the idiots who make me laugh: js, jer, chris, rich, and others whom i cant blow off at the top of my mind. but yes, that feeling has overcome me again, oh such joy (: ive officially decided to go on a boy fast, not that i was ever on guys in the first place, but oh well. from now onwards, the only guys youll hear me talking about is shane, matt, nolan, destery(who is a fucking genius), and my dad. yeah probably.
yest i went to naime's birthday chalet. ah, it was awesome. ive never seen so many tats in my life. went with ger, cyn, kc, cyn, ryl, lj, ainsley and sam. omg we just gorged ourselves on nuggets! and popcorn chicken (: and after we played indian poker, but after a while, it got stale, bc sam actually enjoyed the punishment, so called. oh and yay for kc. taptaprevenge2 on kcs phone is the love. so after sam sent me home, haha HILARIOUS I SWEAR. but hey, all's well that ends well right.
oooh im really excited, its youth day tmr, and im totally going to sleep late. AGAIN. like srsly, how many time am i going to sleep in, just to realise i have a ton of homework to do. gah, hatesss.
random fact: I HATE MILEY CYRUS. sorry shab. i just do.
chapter it.11:56 PM