? Friday, May 08, 2009
seeing as my life has changed significantly in the past few weeks, i decided to change a few things. you know, its the start of something new, and all that. i dont really know how i feel at this point in time. alot of changes are taking place, and im not sure i know how to deal with them. friendship once going strong, now tearing at the seams. original plans of how we'd spend the rest of our lives tgt, seems like a distant memory. just a memory, nothing more. my bucket list hasnt grown any shorter, if not longer. and i wonder if ill really be able to die saying, yeah i lived a great fulfilling life at the end of the day. tears are rather common, and most of the time, theyre falling over change. today, i read something, and i realised, no matter how close we are or get, shes always going to be there, hes always going to be there, and we just dont agree on them. you may like them, i may not. this, overtime, had built a wedge, that drove into the cracks of our relationship. i really dont know what to do. the song playing now is 'pokerface', and somehow, its apt for my life. people always have something to hide, whether from me, or with me. and i cannot take this double life any longer. im going through an apoplectic state, not knowing which path to take at the forked road. and i dont know if youre going to be the one i travel with.
chapter it.8:28 PM