? Tuesday, June 30, 2009
did you ever get that feeling, that maybe, just maybe, things werent meant ot be this way?
im starting to get a feeling of nostalgia. the aching inside for things to be what it was. i miss camp, i miss the people in camp, i miss the whole atmosphere of being there, together with everyone. i really miss the friendships, the meals together, the laughs, the tears, the prayers, spoken and unspoken. even now, thinking back to the camp, im starting to tear up. everything, everyone, was so in tune with each other, no distractions of the outside world. but now, everyone is back to their usual routine, friendships, "for life", - forgotten. ill admit, i really really miss camp. everything in the world is changing so fast, ive just lost the piece of ground ive gained. relationships change, friendships fade, love for God - pushed away by school and excuses. most of all, i miss the conventionality of life. "conventionality is the stagnation of the mind", its written. but honestly, conventionality isnt just that, its knowing you have friends to fall back on, knowing your parents love you no matter what, its the feeling of being safe. and i dont see anything wrong with that. sure, life takes you on wild rides sometimes, but being conventional helps the emotional roller coaster. without it, its like going on a loop-de-loop, without a seat belt. you hold on for your dear life, but sometimes, youre hands get sweaty, and you fall. friends act as seat belts, but they sometimes can faulter too. being in camp, surrounded by all that love, all that support for one another, all the prayers lifted up, it made me feel as though my roller coaster was totally covered with a protective ceiling. it made me feel safe, safer than anything else could make me feel.
youre hands get sweaty, and you fall.
chapter it.11:59 PM